Demotivation is really common just walk away and take a break. There's no reason for you to have to be so attached to the game. I hated the game at first tbh but I started to get into mods that I really enjoyed and actually cared to improve in. The game isn't really for everyone a majority of the friends I've introduced this game to have been demotivated by the huge learning gap. But if you have the patience and other people on your skill level to play with its a lot more fun.